>Guess What This Post Signifies!

>This is my official 100th posting!

YAY!!!! Everybody cheer! Everybody celebrate! Everybody hit the bar! (And feel free to drink to excess, as it is a cash bar and the proceeds are putting me through school lol!)

I wanted to put things aside and just talk for a bit in summary of what’s happened the last Summer. Well, I started to blog as an idea from Rob, just after I got out of the hospital as a way to pass the time, and I latched onto it as a way to further different hobbies that I had, as well as help with the slightly annoying, yet oh so fun to talk about amnesia that I had been developing throughout the ordeal.

I’ve actually met a lot of people through this blog actually, and though not a lot of people read me yet (or at least I don’t think so anyways!), I’ve met some of Rob’s friends and strengthened new ones, as well as reconnected with those that I had lost touch with.

Everyone has apparently salivated over my kitchen endeavors, and I’ve basically been threatened by stapler point by some from various work environments (ahem…you know who you are!!) into bringing sugary morsels of fun to them.

I bought a new toy in my Bamboo Drawing Tablet, which, let’s be honest folks, wasn’t exactly necessary. But let’s face it, you’ve all grown to love my need for shopping and new toys right?

As I’ve stated, I used this platform to create new hobbies and to showcase some of my previously over-exaggerated ones. Cooking, drawing, and tv analysis (making fun of Rachael on Big Brother and her hahaHAhHSHhehsHAhHAShah’s counts right?). I even brought you all with me on my adventures through Amigurumi and all the stupid crocheting stumbles and follies.

I think those closest around me are surprised I haven’t geeked out more on here in regards to video gaming, but believe me, Animal Crossing and our slightly random and off-colour screenshots have not been whisked totally from our lives, and the new generation of Pokemon games are right around the corner………

You’ve seen our little empty apartment grow from a couple of boxes (ok, imagine for a sec!), and the Oasis and it’s semi-bountiful flora, evolve (lol…Pokemon!) into the humid and a little terrifying Rainforest! Quick, heads up!! There’s a lemur! Looks like a storm is brewing over the tv…

A big thing that was helpful was being able to vent and rant and cry and scream at you, the internet people everywhere, about my life, my pains, my re-adjustments to post life-threatening-happenings, my movie choices, and my boyfriend. Basically everything and anything that I feel is pissing me off. That was REALLY helpful!

In closing, the most fun that I’ve, and I’m sure most of you as well, had is definitely bashing said boyfriend. Let’s be honest…most of you just like to make fun of his kitchen mishaps, social awkwardness, and general lack of his surroundings. How many times have I told you that Rob has burned something, pissed me (and others off), fallen, knocked something over, broken something…and I could go on, but I may be talking about future postings now! LOL! Face it, with Rob, it’s going to happen. But that’s one of the reasons we love him isn’t it? In all seriousness, I do have quite the affection towards the boy, and for those of you who’ve yet to meet him, he is honestly someone whom you would have in your corner if given the chance. He’s one in a trillion!

In closing, though I realise that I’ve only had your attention for a fraction of your minute, your day, your week and month, (or even of your three months, come to think of it!), I sincerely hope you have enjoyed yourself! Please do continue to laugh riotously, side splinteringly, and milk spewingly, and remember to leave your feedback!

Keep your eyes glued to your Facebookers and your Twitterers, you never know what may happen to me! (Really! Remember I had emergency surgery that one time, and god knows it would happen again to me! Those that were around for that one fill the others in about the morphine-induced texting! Hilarity in one’s palm!)

Here’s to another 100!*

* If I shot for any higher, I’d have to start charging admission. 

>Today I Wore Big Boy Pants

>Today was a rather shitty day for me, but only in my head.

Let me explain. It stems from my results at yesterday’s doctor’s appoinment, but I’m not going to bore you with that. It’s just, she mentioned that some of my symptoms are because of things that I’m thinking about, and my anxiety over the hospital in the first place. It is not my favorite place by any means, I tend to avoid going there at all costs. I don’t even visit sick friends or family because there’s just something that I don’t like about it.

There’s a death that lingers around the DECH like a dense fog, I just can’t seem to shake it, even afterwards. It’s followed me here, home to my new apartment, and my new budding relationship with the man that, yes, I seem to love very much. There is a future here, or with him, whichever comes first. But right now, my head is playing games with me.

I’ve got no drive.

Today was especially rough and horrid.

I woke up and was tired. I fell asleep probably 20 times today, with nothing to provoke it. I started to draw earlier and was bad and hated myself for it. I scrapped it. Rob made those little fake cinnamon buns from the can that he likes and I shrieked in my head. “YES! That’s what I need! A sugar boost!”

I thought that would do it, and it may very well have. But I wasn’t aware of it, you’d have to ask the chef.

All day all I’ve wanted to do was just get up and do something…to cook something, to go for a walk, to tend to my plants, to draw enough for my blog, to sit and WRITE my blog. Just something. But the day came and went, and I decided that I couldn’t because I felt like I didn’t want to.

Instead, I managed to sit a sulk, mope, and carry on about things that didn’t matter at all to my poor little brain. I even punched a chair. True story.

What started out as a rather angry post dredged from my head has actually had a rather opposite emotion and a different realization spawned into my fingertips. Tomorrow will be different.

It has to be….doesn’t it?

>Garden update… p.s. Rain, I won

>I went out a little earlier to assess the damage from the rain yesterday, and all things considered, I’m a genius. Oh, and everything is fine. A tad waterlogged, but maybe it’s experience for the indoor water garden I’m planning in the Fall.

My tomatoes are about 2 feet tall now, that is, the ones I grew form seed from Chapters. They’ve actually suspiciously outgrown the Scotia I bought from my step-grandmother (?) at the market, but I suppose I can justify that by saying that I have about 4 hand full-sized tomatoes happily busting out on that baby.

I’ve got to replant pretty much every seedling that grew from my Vesey’s Seeds online overindulgence. They are ginormous…and I’m scared that the larger ones might pick on the smaller ones. Think…Veggie Tales in the locker room maybe?

I’m quite happy about the progress that my newer plants are making, my Calamodin Orange, my random tropicals, and my beloved Croton. Don’t tell the others, but that one definitely is my favorite! It came to me quite boring and green, with it’s spikey long leaves. Then after I mistakenly sunburned the little Princess (or Prince….I haven’t figured out how to work gender specific questions into a conversation with it yet), it’s decided to go full blown into verigating itself. Right now it’s green with yellow, but it’s starting to go yellow with green. Soon hopefully it will turn red… it’s so conflicted!!

BTW Rain, I won. I’ve conquered not only you, but your friend the wind. My patio is whirlygiggy once more!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

ahem.. cough cough..

Rob just looked over at me:
“What are you doing? You’re typing a lot.”
“Blog.”
“Oh yea!”

I doodled a bit earlier when I was bored, and wanted to capture the sheer glee that Rob has been getting over the strawberries, now that they’ve decided to turn sweet finally.

He’s spotted 2 this morning when I was outside, but I’m holding out for a couple more to ripen later today. I think he may be a little disappointed with the crop so far, but, though I may be all powerful, I haven’t figured out how to will my little plant to start spitting pints out at him. Wow! I’m off my game! First the Croton, and now the strawberries 😦

I sahrry 😦